My head still heavy from yesterday night!
a cofi did help my cause to get rid of that and be ready for yet another weekend...
nothing really happening these days...
going to be another typical day....movie(s), chat...sleep and then more sleep!
Rather than sleeping off my boredom, I should replace it with the excitement of reading a good book or the satisfaction of learning something new or the freshness after a good game of racket ball or cardio
I guess of the available options, your brain chooses the easiest and not necessarily the happiest path...it takes a lot of effort to train a lazy brain to act otherwise...the results are worth taking that 'risk'…what’s stopping me then?. I think I am used to being lazy!:-)
On this yet another dull Saturday morning, I was hearing "pogathe..." from diwali...though these love songs bring faces to my memory, there is always something missing! if only i had fallen in love...in a love where i wish i'd have lost and then rediscovered myself!!
To borrow some famous lines..if only i had someone whose name i'd 'subconsciously' write whenever i buy a new pen!whose face i'd see everytime i see the moon!!
i dont think those are going to happen ever!:-P
i tried dedicating sometime for this..wy dint i 'really' fall in love!
though love can happen only within the circle where u are moving...ur school, college mates, colleagues, friends of friends and the whole circle is very small in my case...its not that i dint like any of them...i have had crushes.
i liked one girl more than everyone for so many reasons and even took it one step further...It was not out of any real love but a calculated move i guess...when you want to settle down in life...but i only thank god that it dint happen!it was a baseless proposal!
there is a big difference between falling for a girl and falling in love...
I liked alai payuthe for that one reason...when Madhavan tells shalini finally..."only when u were missing and i was searching frantically vrywhere in the city for u, did i realize that i am actually in love with you". They hadn't fallen in love even when they eloped and got married...Love happened much later!
And i firmly believe love is never one sided...it cant be love! call it by any other name!Love cannot happen when its one-sided...you desire a girl strongly...and when u feel she is not going to be yours, the desire kills you slowly and the more u let the feeling grow you are only destroying urself...i dont think it is any different from desiring to become a doctor or engineer or even get a good job...please dont call that love! to love is to be loved! Its theoretically impossible and against the basic laws of physics to be able to unconditionally love someone without expecting them to love you back or can you?!!
Love i believe starts with friendship. where there is no friendship there really is no love! when the desire or belongingness for each other outgrows your friendship it ends up in love...but alas! when u desire the girl and she doesn't, u are screwed up!! Worst position to be in;-) here again it actually isnt love..only one desperate soul...
i have hardly talked to girls, forget about friendship (except one good friend in infy!), so there i rested my case...
plus some random factors i could think of...
in school and college u are too young to choose the right girl. You keep thinking that whatever happens is only infatuation..you have to build a base for ur future and all….At work you become too matured and think of so many factors...and yes, most of the good girls are already taken;-)...
Society in my case hasn’t grown to accept a love marriage yet never giving me freedom to think of love marriage as a real option!
